Like Grapefruit

See me as I really am
Carried about of winds raging here and over there
Sin lies at the door
Will I drown with most
Alone
What am I if anything at all
I’ve been a fool
Fumbling in the dark
Becoming something that I’m not
Or whether showing what I really am
Darkness had a place for me
Spinning around the room like a top
Gaining momentum before I crash within myself
Feeling such pareidolia
Such large creatures
As I fit into the eye of the influential one
They hang among the stars
Oh they creep, but late at night
You are a warrior my dear
Keep that brilliant head afloat
And when the images get too heavy rub your eyes and come to life
Your all you’ve got
You’ve eaten it, touched it..
The lack of concern they dish out
It’s not too late
To forget..
Move along now.
So sleek in form

Your a warrior my dear
Keep that brilliant head afloat

It kissed me
This wind thats been making such a furious noise
Will not let me go to sleep at night
Shouting promises of love and trust
All night I laid wake
I pleaded with it to settle down
It whispered that there wasn’t any time
It gave me chills and finally my eyes fell shut..

I watched as the sun woke up
I admired it for it knows each day exactly what to do
The leaves will fall from the trees and then come back again in the spring
As though rejoicing God
And the birds have all sang a mighty tune
As I lie in bed
They flourish

He says never to ignore it
The beating pulse that is in my head
that pounds against my skull and causes me such grief at night
He says to acknowledge it and not lose faith in my God
my soul it burns a mighty storm
I’ve been real tired and haven’t any time..

Now is the time I need to make for myself. To become something better. Thrive.

My mind dances about
It’s a beastly thing
Sing with me
We will talk about our lives
As we lay together in the dark
your hand in mine
the rain will pour
It’s a wonderful night
your eyes illuminated in the shadows..
and we will cast our cares aside for just the night
seeking what.. as we gather in the silence

what is it all worth
an encounter
false teachings
your smile and my thinking..
I will rest on this when I can fall asleep
wide awake
I’m wide awake and I’m feeling out of sorts..
forget.
you see, everyone forgets..
give it your best
and watch it amount to nothing.
you weren’t meant for this game because that’s all it is.. a game.

What do I know if anything at all
I crave to do much more

With our hungry minds what is on the menu for the night
What can I take away
Will I even be ok
What is this I feel
Is this another hole I’ve dug
With my manner of speech I will keep it all deep
I will ask myself
Are you just another face they see
What is it that you seem to find..

I lack a certain remembrance
your smiles they made me wince..

And when all the heads had turned back into that tunnel visioned state, I ran from view
I sat real still and didn’t say a word.
They looked on, impressive eyes with guessing minds.

It cannot be found among common things
Nor in your thoughts, you thought you knew
No, it cannot be found among the past nor in the present
I’ve hidden it.

You know often times we love to hear ourselves speak and I’m a listener so I’ve gotten along just fine.

I’ve heard tales of joy, of death and despair.
Tales from old men of regret and longing.

I haven’t a voice to disclose my own tales or maybe I just haven’t any.
So I’ll sympathize, nod and I’ll smile, and think on these many different ordeals we go through and how they shape us into the individuals we are today.

You cannot compare grief.
Some may only take just a pinch of the pitcher you’ve gone through.
We feel the need to communicate our stories.
Listen well, you may learn something.

It is time for me to bid adieu to the winds of this city and make some moves, build and explore what my eyes have yet to see
I crave this and must do it soon..